if youre ever lonely

and you're feeling shot

cook up another hit, tap

all the bubbles out

fuck your family and every bit of happiness

shoot it up

shoot it up

You were right.

Dry your eyes, dont let them see you cry
drown it out with a bottle
drown yourself in it, sink in to your own misery
everything else that I own is just a shitty piece of art
nobody's staying...i dont know if i want anyone to

Im so fucking stupid.
I dont even know what I want.
Everyone should just leave me.
It would be best really.
Really?
...trying to find that answer.
What am I doing here?
What am I doing with my life? 
I don't know what I want, and that's as fucking honest as I can get.
No idea what I want to do with my life.
No idea... about anything.

Resisting every urge to kill myself tonight. This shit sucks. I suck.
Im a pretty fucking horrible person, it's awful. I see it in everything that I do, and Im trying but I guess I'll always be a wretched human being. I fucking hate myself.
Im sorry. Honestly, from the bottom of my heart, for everything that I have done that has ruined something for everyone else. I have this habit, you see, of screwing things up for everyone; I don't even mean to. Hell, I try not to.
It sucks, it fucking sucks.
I hate being me, I hate the life that I'm living now and I hate everything about myself.
Looks like this is gonna be another sleepless night.

i am just one great big dwallop of failure.
I NEED TO
DECIDE
WHAT I WANT
I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT EVER KNOWING
I AM PLAYING LIFE LIKE ITS A GAME AND ITS NOT
ITS NOT A GAME AND IM HURTING PEOPLE I NEED TO MAKE UP MY FUCKING MIND
i just dont know where to begin

So
there is
we are only just
scraping the surface
its so much deeper and there is so much more
to
everything
than we thought