I thought I saw you today. My heart started to pound, I was speechless for a moment, and you were all that existed. Then you turned around and it wasn't you.
I almost cried.

A Trip Down Photoshopped Memory Lane

I found this hidden in one of my old books. Wierdly enough, it made me happy to see how sad I used to be. How hopeless. It made me happy at how far I've come.



~~~~The girl who seemed unbreakable-broke, The girl who seemed so strong-crumbled, The girl who always laughed it off-cried, The girl who would never stop trying-finally gave up and quit. its not just a quote, its the story of my and so many others's lives. im not fine, i wish someone would notice.

I've made a terrible mistake. I think I've accidently chosen drugs over everything I used to love. And the worste part? I don't know if I can change it.

I am a pessimist pretending to be an optimist. And, everybody says I'm so nice, happy, kind, or sweet. I'm one of the most violent people I know.

In public, a smile is a shield. At home, the walls come down. We think about how we've failed. How pointless our successes are. Wonder whether anyone loves us.

"Und der Haifisch der hat Tränen und die laufen vom Gesicht, doch der Haifisch lebt im Wasser so die tränen sieht man nicht. In der Tiefe ist es einsam Und so manche Zähre fließt, und so kommt es dass das Wasser in den Meeren salzig ist."

~~And the shark has tears running from his face, but she shark lives in the water so the tears can't be seen. In those depths there is loneliness. There are so many flowing tears, so that it happens that the water in the sea is salty.

-Rammstein.

An intro I wrote on guitar. The first bit is okay.

This is what I do in my spare time.. fail playing guitar.

I do

Piercings/ Tattoos

Okay, Ive decided what piercings I'm getting after my birthday this year.
EARS:

• Ears spaced 10mm left, 16mm right, (had 8&6 but shrunk the right back to 0 and the left to 6)
• Antitragus
• Conch
• Rook
• Three regular lobe piercings in the left, and another one below/ above spacer (depends on which has more room haha)
• Two cartilage piercings in right ear
• Two sideburn skindivers (left side)

Also

• Snakebites
• Horizontal eyebrow
• Three in each cheek
• Vertical labret

That should be it(:
Planning on getting sleeves as well, particularily some scarification triangles on my inner elbows, filled with designs.

Good Morning

Life's good. Hey, shit happens but you gotta roll with the punches. Things always work out; you just have to make it through the storm. Dont expect your life to be perfect,, just treasure the perfect parts of it. All the rest eventually fades away.
I'm happy. Life's good. I love it.