Dodge

If I keep Dodge, I can say goodbye to my boyfriend, my body, my family, and my life. If I lose Dodge, I can say goodbye to my morals and ethnicity, my personal beliefs and ideas, what I stand for. Do I choose to abort, to kill, just because it's the easy way out? There's something big about having someone growing inside you. That one life is entirely in your hands. It grounds you. It makes you realise just how powerfull you can be. But is it even worth it, to create one more fatherless child? There's no way I would be able to support Dodge, so that would be another orphaned child whos mother gave them up. Maybe I want both options. I'm scared of what I might decide, I can't make this decision all on my own but I have to. It's so wrong, I shouldn't even have to think about this at my age!
Sometimes I think I feel his/her heart beating with mine. A soul within my soul... do I kill Dodge to keep my simplicity of life? Or do i try to do something for someone else other than myself? Even if it means giving up the life I've always had?