I can't do it anymore. Two fucking months, for who? For me? It was never about me - it was always about you. What will everyone think??? Better make sure your daughter doesnt put shame to your name. Play the blame game. Lie. Cheat. Fake it.
I've been faking it because the urge is here as strong as ever. You know I can't be everyone's rock. I want to be, I need to be  - but I can't be. Which makes me feel useless and like I have let everyone down; in the end, I guess, thats what I fear the most. Letting people down. Not being good enough.
Ah well, might as well prove it. Fuck em.
Fuck yeah we're gonna party tonight.