I don't want to do this - but I have to. I'm losing my mind. I really am. I can't control myself. I'm not a good person in any sense of the word.
This hurts.
I don't really know what I'm doing anymore.
But I know that I'm getting worse.
And I found out I have a glitch the other day. Basically, every day I lose minutes of my life (ie- I'll have no idea what I just said or where I just came from). The psychiatrist said that I will lose around 30% (if not more) of my life.
I am a fucking mess.