So, I didnt die.
I threw up all the pills (sadly) and walked around in a haze for the next two days. I had no energy, no reasons for anything; the only reason I didnt try to kill myself again was because I literally did not have the energy.
I was shaking and having a total breakdown all day though, and I was terrified to be left alone because I knew I would hang myself.
Then, the other night, I tried LSD for the first time. This was the most mind-opening experience of my entire life (including shrooms) and I literally was filled with this amazing joy and energy, my mind was bubbling over with colour and great ideas. Everything held such potential.

Of course, everything went back to normal.
I still feel cold.