Im so lost. I cant even get up in the morning. Why do I even bother?
Its like everything I do is pointless, like I'm just a waste of space.
And I get that horrible ache inside that nothing will ever fill; and Im so afraid that it will never end.

I'm Worst At What I Do Best

Sometimes I think I've actually accomplished something. Like I've proved myself or something. Then I turn around and realise that everything I do is worse than everyone else.

Welcome To The Family

Lights on, lights off, it's happening again. Hit me harder, black and blue, I won't ever break for you. I'll take all your shit cause it's my fault you hate me in the first place. God, from the outside noone would ever know anything was wrong. I deal with your shit with all of the shots I drown myself in. And when morning comes we all pretend to be perfect again.

Im scared of the mark I'm going to leave here. I always thought unwanted to leave a mark on the world in some way, but this is so goddamn wrong. You don't want to be like me. It always looks glamorous but it never is. I'm a fucking wreck. And you want to be me?
I don't want anyone to ever want to be me. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.