#2

A plane, not a big commercial jet, rather a small aircraft crashes. Not because of malfunction or lack of petrol. Im not sure why, but it is not the planes fault. There is less than  10 people inside the plane.

#1

An Asian country, (Im going to assume Japan, because of the recent nuclear problem/ fears) is going to be in trouble with water somehow. Not floods, some sort of contamination or perhaps a lack of water somewhere?
Something about 20. 20 people, or kilograms, or meters, or kilometers? Something is bad about the number 20. Like, something is unsafe.

Confession

To be honest, I used to want to be a screwup. I wanted to be the one that always fucked up, the one who had nothing left. Now I'm trying to dig myself out of this hole that I made for myself, and I hate every second of it.
No, I dont have aspirations to be the most fucking perfect person ever. Not even close. But I just want things to be okay. I hate myself for it; I put myself here because I liked the cheap reality breaks and easy thrills, the all night parties - the nights that I hardly remember. But now all I want is for things to get better. And they are, slowly, but it hurts because Im trying so hard, so fucking hard, just to make things work and everyone says Im not trying.
But it's my fucking fault that I'm here in the first place.
What a fucking joke.

Im Ruining My Life, One Day At A Time

And I don't know how to stop.

Heres To The Future

Okay. For the next week, every day, I am going to tell you important things that will happen in the world, but have not yet happened.
At the end of each post you will see the date, as proof.
Welcome to the future.

"That’s It
I am over it.
I can’t spend my life trying to please everyone.
If you have a problem with me then tell me soon coz I’m not gonna be round much longer.
If you really love me then you will let me do what I have to do.
It’s over.
It’s time for my final fucking curtain call."

I worry about you. When I read that my heart started pounding and I got the shakes. I know it seems stupid, but I know that if you got in in your mind to give up, you would. I've already lost so many people I care about; I cant lose another.
 It's so hard to just let go completely; cause I still care about you and what happens to you. I dont want anything bad to happen to you.

Sonnet of the Wretched - Chelsea Grin

This is the sonnet of the wretched,
Can you hear their screams?
Your prayers won't be heard,
They will rise.

When daylight dies they come and bring an abrupt end to your sinful life.
There's nothing you can do to stop them now,
It's too late.
Just run and hide and hope they will never find you until it's over and they're gone.

You think this is Hell?
You don't know the half of it.
There's nothing sacred here,
Everything you once loved has been defiled.

There's only pain, and sorrow.
They bring the end.
And there's nothing that can save you from this cruel fate.
But it's your fault, it is you that brought them.

And smelt the stench of your abject existence.
They've come to cleanse your soul of its affliction.
You can't repent because it's far too late.
Just wait until they have you in their grasp.

Now you will feel what it's like to be in hell.
And your only company will be the horde.
This is now the end your soul is cleansed your mouth is stitched your eyes are blind.
And your blackened heart ceases to beat anymore.

Now they have gone. Desappeared without a trace.
this is the sonnet of the wretched.
Did you hear their screams?
Your prayers were not heard.
They have cleansed all sin and evil.

Lay to rest.

Everything you have in this life, you can lose.

I still miss you. It's stupid. So horribly stupid. I would give anything and everything just to see you again. I know that it's my fault, but all I want is for someone to tell me that it's not. I can't live with the guilt of it. I just feel so horribly sick.