I thought I saw you today. My heart started to pound, I was speechless for a moment, and you were all that existed. Then you turned around and it wasn't you.
I almost cried.

A Trip Down Photoshopped Memory Lane

I found this hidden in one of my old books. Wierdly enough, it made me happy to see how sad I used to be. How hopeless. It made me happy at how far I've come.



~~~~The girl who seemed unbreakable-broke, The girl who seemed so strong-crumbled, The girl who always laughed it off-cried, The girl who would never stop trying-finally gave up and quit. its not just a quote, its the story of my and so many others's lives. im not fine, i wish someone would notice.

I've made a terrible mistake. I think I've accidently chosen drugs over everything I used to love. And the worste part? I don't know if I can change it.

I am a pessimist pretending to be an optimist. And, everybody says I'm so nice, happy, kind, or sweet. I'm one of the most violent people I know.

In public, a smile is a shield. At home, the walls come down. We think about how we've failed. How pointless our successes are. Wonder whether anyone loves us.

"Und der Haifisch der hat Tränen und die laufen vom Gesicht, doch der Haifisch lebt im Wasser so die tränen sieht man nicht. In der Tiefe ist es einsam Und so manche Zähre fließt, und so kommt es dass das Wasser in den Meeren salzig ist."

~~And the shark has tears running from his face, but she shark lives in the water so the tears can't be seen. In those depths there is loneliness. There are so many flowing tears, so that it happens that the water in the sea is salty.

-Rammstein.

An intro I wrote on guitar. The first bit is okay.

This is what I do in my spare time.. fail playing guitar.

I do

Piercings/ Tattoos

Okay, Ive decided what piercings I'm getting after my birthday this year.
EARS:

• Ears spaced 10mm left, 16mm right, (had 8&6 but shrunk the right back to 0 and the left to 6)
• Antitragus
• Conch
• Rook
• Three regular lobe piercings in the left, and another one below/ above spacer (depends on which has more room haha)
• Two cartilage piercings in right ear
• Two sideburn skindivers (left side)

Also

• Snakebites
• Horizontal eyebrow
• Three in each cheek
• Vertical labret

That should be it(:
Planning on getting sleeves as well, particularily some scarification triangles on my inner elbows, filled with designs.

Good Morning

Life's good. Hey, shit happens but you gotta roll with the punches. Things always work out; you just have to make it through the storm. Dont expect your life to be perfect,, just treasure the perfect parts of it. All the rest eventually fades away.
I'm happy. Life's good. I love it.

30 Day Song Challenge in One Post

This is the 30 day dong challenge, all in one post. Click on the songs to listen.

day 01 - your favorite song

Walk With Me In Hell - Lamb Of God

day 02 - your least favorite song

Friday - Rebecca Black

day 03 - a song that makes you happy

Unspoken - The Ghost Inside

day 04 - a song that makes you sad

Shinto Katana - Sunset

day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
From The Cradle To Enslave - Cradle Of Filth

day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
Say Goodbye - I Killed The Prom Queen

day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
Black And Blue - Bring Me The Horizon

day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
Descending - Lamb Of God

day 09 - a song that you can dance to
Day In Day Out - Architects (Big Chocolate Remix)

day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep (in a good way)
Hearts Burst Into Fire - Bullet for My Valentine

day 11 - a song from your favorite band
Downfall - Children Of Bodom

day 12 - a song from a band you hate
Knives And Pens - Black Veil Brides

day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
Superfohn Bananendate - We Butter The Bread With Butter

day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
Million Miles Of Water - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

day 15 - a song that describes you

Ashley - Stick To Your Guns

day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
I'm Not Okay (I Promise)  - My Chemical Romance

day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio

dont listen to the radio :P

day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
Raining Blood -Slayer

day 19 - a song from your favorite album
Don't Close our Eyes - Parkway Drive

day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
Wasted - Suicide Silence

day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
You Had Me At Hello - A Day To Remember

day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
Clouds Over California - Devildriver

day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding

day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral

day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
If You Open Your Mind Too Much, Your Brains Will Fall Out - Tim Minchin

day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
Grey Sublime Archon - Eluveitie

day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
Ocean - John Butler Trio

day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty

Vermillion, pt.2 - Slipknot

day 29 - a song from your childhood
Wild Horses - The Rolling Stones

day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Oblivion - Mastodon