A close friend of mine killed himself early this morning. It hurts so much.
Everyone keeps saying they wish they'd seen the signs and they wish he had said something but I KNEW, and I thought everyone else did too. I should have done more, I could have done more and I miss you already. You were such a great guy.
I should have stayed up later each night to talk to him, and last night, or ALL the nights I choose to go to bed before 5am, he sends me his suicide note when I am asleep. If I replied earlier, if I had called, or something, anything...